update: I took her to the
hi Marje and team, i intended to sleep through the night with oregano on my lap, so we began that process around 11 last night and by 2 am it had become clear that she was not getting better. she was extremely lethargic, uninterested, no purring, no fussing if i fiddled with her ears, etc. so i took her into the emergency vet (we are blessed with a wonderful and massive emergency vet here in our city) where they know here well. they did blood work, exam, urine culture, and ultrasound.
she was badly dehydrated and has become slightly anemic. her white blood cell count (normal range i'm told is 20k) was 44k two weeks ago when we had her labs done then and is up to 68k now. so she's fighting something. could also be cancer they said but they ruled that out with the ultrasound. ultrasound also ruled out internal bleeding, which is a key driver of anemia.
they are thinking (for now) that it's possible the uti has gone up her ureters to her kidneys, which would also explain the elevated creatinine and BUN readings (both have gotten worse since her labs were done a couple weeks ago.
they are keeping her overnight but i am going in at 830 my time to make her supper and visit with her, and to take her an old slightly smelly sweatshirt of mine that she just loves to lie on, so that she has that to sleep with tonight. when she has that sweatshirt she makes biscuits and stretches out and purrs nonstop so i want her to have that tonight.
i think i am hoping it is the uti in the kidneys because i feel like that's treatable; i am also aware that older cats and particularly older cats with diabetes, are susceptible to kidney failure, and that this is often terminal, and likely painful if i let it go on too long. and the thought of that just crushes me.
it all sucks. i know the end whenever it comes is truly terrible--i've had pets i've had to put to sleep over the years and it is always awful. the struggle for me now is to make sure she doesn't experience pain, and enjoys ever remaining day as much as possible, and has as many as i can possibly give her.
sorry to go dark there--been an emotional and difficult day. i had to leave her at the hospital a few hours ago and have to leave her overnight and that's rough.